I am not sure how it all happened. I know I was in the room when eight out of the ten of our grandbabies were born. I was there to sing Happy BIRTH day in a hushed whisper to each and every one of them for the first time. I took their first photographs with their mommies and daddies. Mommies crying tears of joy, daddy’s cutting cords…..I took the first pictures when siblings met the new baby. I was there . I was. And yet……how can it all be. It seems inconceivable to me that I am 51 years old and have three WONDERFUL grown children of my own AND now have TEN grandbabies under the age of nine. What a sacred blessing it was for me to be invited into those moments. Memoires more precious than the spoken word can express. I am grateful God allowed me to be here to see it all. It wasn’t this side of 9 years ago that I battle cancer and wasn’t sure I would survive to see our first Grandbaby born, And to be honest …days when I was so sick, and tired and wouldn’t have cared if I did. What a gift. I didn’t just make it to see Benjamin born….but nine more after him and I am grateful to say I am a survivor.
It can be crazy at loud at Omie and Papas house. (Omie is German for Grandma). There is actually almost three sets of twins between our two daughters. Each of our daughters have been pregnant and delivered three babies each and each pregnancy had been within 5 months of the other sisters delivery. We have a set of 2 years olds, a set 4 year olds, two babies at the moment, and then there are three older grands….. 7, 8, 9, and they have a little sister that is 2 all from our son. Life is full and happy and loud and chaotic.
At least one or two days a week you can drive by our farm and you will see all those yellow and red plastic cars left discarded in the yard, children riding tractors, bikes, tricycles. Or you may see them climbing up to the two story playhouse that I built for the first of our grandbabies about five years ago.
We have a central boiler, Papa built a shed to hold wood, I built another one and put a playhouse on top of it with the help of my son in laws and son.
Last weekend, our play house received an upgrade. With the gift of two previously used slides, one normal and one of those ugly enclosed things, I decided to add an additional 8 feet on the second deck and add another yellow slide. So we have slides going to the east and the west. A large green enclosed slide on the back side (not visible from the road…yeah) going south. The grandchildren come and they are beyond excited . You cannot slow them down and I seriously wish I had a little copper penny for every time one of those children climb the stairs and race down a slide…..they do it hundreds of times in a day. Its crazy. The energy they have.
I am very grateful for this piece of ground that I am able to be the steward of while I walk on this earth, I appreciate the wonderful place our children and their children get to play and explore. That I will be able to teach them/ show them (as I did our children) what a tractor with wheels is like, what mold board plowing is, and what its like to raise animals by hand and to use a New Idea corn picker to pick ears of corn to store in a corn crib like folks did back in the 1940’s – 80’s. A hard way of life back in the day….but the best way and we got it honest. It wasn’t handed to us…we struggle to make the payment every month like so many people today….but I am so grateful for the opportunity to wake up here everyday and watch all these babies
OUR LIVES CAN BE FULL OF PAIN, AND HEARTACHE….
HURTS AND ABUSE…ITS UP TO US TO MAKE THE DIFFERENCE WE WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD. TO LOVE WITH NO HANDS, NO CONDITIONS…..ITS NOTHING SOMEONE SHOULD HAVE TO EARN…BUT SOMETHING WE SHOULD ALL TRY TO BE GRATEFUL FOR HAVING. IF YOU DONT FEEL YOU HAVE HAD ENOUGH LOVE IN YOUR LIFE THEN GO FORWARD AND SPREAD IT THICKER TO SOMEONE ELSE WHO NEEDS IT. LIFE… IS SO FRAGILE, NO LUGGAGE RACK ON A HURSE…..LIVE FOR TODAY…LOVE FOR TODAY…FORGIVE FOR TODAY…AND LET THE LORD WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW.
Heard this song this beautiful Spring morning and I am reminded of just how precious a gift life is and how we live it …..whole heartedly that makes the difference. Forgive others….its the best gift you can give yourself.
DO IT ANYWAY…..BY MARTINA MCBRIDE.
You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away …
build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way …
dream it anywayGod is great, but sometimes life ain’t good
And when I pray it doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway … I do it anywayThis worlds gone crazy and it’s hard to believe,
That tomorrow will be better than today …
believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons
And in a moment they can choose to walk away …
love em anyway
God is great, but sometimes life ain’t good
And when I pray it doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway … yeah, I do it anyway
You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in
That tomorrow they’ll forget you ever sang..Sing it anyway …
yeah, sing it anyway yeah, yeah
OUR ANGEL ..Our MOM…
GOD chose an angel from above
An Angel sweet and fair;
He placed a Halo around her head
To match her silvery hair.…
He gathered sunbeams for her smile
From His beautiful skies above;
Then He carved a heart of SOLID GOLD
Then filled it all up with love.
He picked the stars from the skies
To give her eyes of blue;
He gave her kindness, hope and faith
To last her whole life through.
GOD CHOSE OUR Angel from Above
On “LOAN” to us for a little while;
Then He came and took her home again
But left us with her smile.
Dearest Mom, how can it be that you have been lost from our lives for three years now. It seems so much longer. You live on in our hearts each and every day, we think about you often and I mourn the loss that our grandbabies have for never getting to know you. I feel sad when I am hugging them tight, laughing with them, chasing them, breathing them deep into my own lungs and memory and I realize if not for you they wouldn’t be here.
If not for you, Carl would not have been here either. What a precious legacy you have left behind. How you would have loved all these babies. (Especially the ones that have your loud…voice) lol. I spoke at your funeral. Did you hear me? I Read a poem I wrote for you. You always ask me to read to you, you loved it. For over 30 years I was your reader…. But did I ever tell you I Ioved reading to you? I hope I did.
And while I promised YOU and myself at your graveside that I would be sure these babies all knew about you and the song you always sang to our babies… “Smile A While”
…I cannot sing the song to my ten grand babies yet without crying myself. I am sure that in Heaven your crown is almost to heavy to wear for if ever there was a saint on earth it was you. If ever there was a woman who deserved a crown full of diamonds it was you. I like to think that you and Don are up in Heaven laughing hysterically over silly things.
We miss you Mom, we love you still …you left a hole in our hearts and in our family that no one will ever be able to fill.
And thank YOU….for never accepting me as your first daughter in law…but instead adopted me as your daughter BEFORE I ever married your first born baby. What a blessing you were FOR me. All the love and acceptance of a Mother that I always yearned for, never had ..until I was 18, met you and thereafter………you never failed to give me.